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To my friends

To my friends:
now, a new chapter begins.

You, who have stood by me
while all else deserted;
You, who could see
what really mattered.

Those of you I joked around with
or engaged in staring matches
being normal: a myth…
You, who also had sweat patches.

Then there were those closer;
more than just friends
those to be hugged tighter (or pushed further)
to steer clear or worship as godsends.

The Beethovens and Puccinis
astounding, so incredibly talented
others, as dry as ten-day grissinis
or like ancient blades—blunted.

Peculiar, bizarre or perplexed
your faces have been;
while I was not vexed
some things cannot be unseen.

The future world leaders
and the future garbage men
all learned literary readers
some wishing they said “amen”.

The party animals
with seemingly bottomless bladders
others, mammalian cannibals
starting already to climb career ladders.

To be very brief, indeed,
it matters not whence you come
or what devils you believe in;
it’s the shared experiences:
those are second to none
and the cameras we have smiled in
putting aside our differences.

I have a message unsmall:
I love you all.

Torrid untranquilities and ninety nice notes

We’re a babbling bumbling band of baboons
doing nothing but complaining from our cosy cocoons.
It would be wonderful to whack our wretched worries
and the terrifyingly terrible atrocities of terror
us humble humans have hence held to hold
instead of crazy conflicts and crooked cops,
we really need ninety nice notes
from gallant gods gloating gloriously from the Garden;
then those torrid tortuous (un)tranquilities would suddenly stop starting.

Past/future

It was naïve beyond belief
I thought our love was to stay;
Nor could I imagine the relief
When you finally went away.

Now, looking upon new horizons:
with unknown places left to explore.
I will avoid drawing comparisons:
it will be a new start, nothing more.

Many emotions on this final day

On this final day
where a journey falls away;
a journey of many years
of both tears and fears.
And it wasn’t so cool:
it was only school.

But on this final day
when goodbyes we get not to say
all I am asking for,
a favour, nothing more;
a big, warm hug
something for my heart to tug.
A loving embrace
and then a glance upon each other’s face…

But I guess even such a simple task
Is simply too much to ask.

Past

No, I have not forgotten anything
to your voice, there was a ring;
nor the way your smile used to sing
as you sat there opposite.
There was more between us to admit
your look, for my emotions a conduit
to higher, deeper words inside
as our universes used to collide
emotions words could not describe.

With a sorry, I concede
it lasted longer than agreed.
No longer was I able to read
all your secret and obvious signs;
then, I knew, that this defines
and most certainly undermines
what was left of the beauty;
we realised it was not our duty
to tend to our tender amity.

Lost

Searching for everything and nothing
looking for it all;
can’t seem to get
to the bottom of it all.

Peering into the darkness
from a porthole onto fog
not knowing the hidden rough sea
is just the beginning of the prologue.

This ship should sail far
to a secluded island or the highest peaks
away from this wretched endless rush
to find out what my heart seeks.

This journey, I must embark on alone
for the deep crevasses
and fast-moving sand pits
need not your caresses.

Your caresses, glue to the shards
scattered through my being;
perhaps there is one hope
or a ludicrous fantasy I am seeing.

Quarantine 5

What day is it?
A greyish blend
An endless pit
With no view around the bend;
but this time
is well spent
making words rhyme.

Others find it less so,
they’re taking it badly;
A shame, because there’s much to know
they look at it rather sadly.

For this is now week five
indeed, it does deprive
us of our friends
and our partners’ beds.

Instead, we can finally see
Those who we’ve been living with: our family.
It’s really not that bad
unless you check the numbers
—and now they’re more than sad;
So many people entering eternal slumbers
For their sake and ours,
Let’s hope this lasts only a few more hours.

Maybe one day

Stepping onto the stage
the applause grows
grows louder
now a roar,
a standing ovation.

Curtains wide open
spotlights like stars
only much closer.
Showing perspiration
as the victory chords
ring out in glorious succession
across the auditorium
reverberating, echoing
dancing—in tandem
with the cheers and claps
a victorious couple,
entwined, a cosine and sine,
soaking up the crowd
the atmosphere,
the joy.

Suddenly—a snap.
And silence.

Stadium, gone.
No yelling,
no standing,
no longer.

Back to reality
reality of real life.
Maybe one day, says father,
hand on my shoulder.

Fatigue

As the fog rolls in
you cannot see the shore;
much like when
you are tired once more.

A grey-blue haze
of midnight blooms
comes rushing in;
it swiftly swoons.

You dread it coming
but avoid it, you cannot
the ship’s arrived
ties you up in a knot.

Your time has come,
the slow bells of slumber call
run away, you can try
be like running into a brick wall.
Either way, standing or sitting or lying;
the heavy curtain will fall like lead
little time left for complying,
it cares not whether you are in your bed.

Otherwise, should you wish to evade,
it will not be lead next time:
the shrill whistle of falling stone
as you draw your last breath, alone.

If only she knew

I look into her eyes:
they are like a sunlit forest,
a terrestrial Lothlorien.
Green and brown,
rich, lively earthly hues
I’m already lost in them, to be honest.
My breath comes out in sighs,
she is smiling:
a real comedienne.

Moments like these
could last forever;
and in a way, they do.
Forever on replay
in my mind,
if only, if only she knew.

She won’t ask
and I won’t tell her.
How could you?
You can’t say
that every second
since that fateful day
I’ve been wanting to tell you
that what I feel is true.

It’s a shame that moment never happened;
you were never that close.
Your eyes, only distant;
not glancing my way,
not even for an instant.
On a picture I hold
as my hands tremble.
At least the tears, I mumble,
wash away the dust as they tumble.