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Category: Life

Life is a strange thing: we’ve all been thrust into it without having much say, and sometimes events seem to be whirling around so quickly we hardly have time to breathe. The same as you, I’ve been around for a while now—and at times the happenings around me have compelled me to put them down upon paper, and whatever this digital ‘paper’ is.

In the middle of nowhere

Such a funny sentence
What does it mean
Where is nowhere
and where can I find it?

Is it where the trees stopped growing
and the oil slicks stopped spilling
Is it where there is peace
and love amongst all?

Neighbourhood

Looking through the courtyard
My gaze is drawn
To the two unclothed people
Frolicking in their kitchen

Wondering if they know
They are putting on a show
For my neighbours and I
Leaves me enough time to conclude
Perhaps time for a hot and steamy
cuppa tea

Doubts

Questions swirling in my mind
Questions stirring swirling my stomach
anxieties of anxieties
and of my sensitive nature
lead me to question
lead me to doubt
a great deal.

Even if I wonder, even
if the anxiety whooshes in
even if I doubt
I know, I feel
I am at home with you

Even if I’m unsure
even if the doubts rush in
even if I’m not at home with myself
I’m at home with you.

Vulnerable

Opened up with a sentence
A deep-seated discomfort looms
Elephant in a china shop
Breaking the fragile state of mind

But it’s followed by the sweet honey of comfort
Dripping in between the cracks
Filling the seams
And making me whole again.

Home 2

Home, tugging at my heartstrings
Home, slipping away into the dark
Home, why don’t I know what my heart sings
Home, why does every step miss the mark?

As the clouds cover all below
Shrouding memories in mist
Thinking of the thoughts in tow
All the things I might've missed

Questioning my happiness
Wondering what home I miss
And doubting my sadness
Longing for my beloved’s kiss. 

Onwards I go, alone but not lonely
As the way forward becomes clear
My darling, I know that only 
Want you to be by my side, my dear.

Relief

What's brewing underneath that smile?
A deep-rooted contentment
Going the extra inner mile
It's that smile you give me
It's that smile I reply with
It's the orchestra reaching a crescendo
and a song in its coda
It's the feeling of getting  to know yourself;
the feeling of knowing the road is long
and has been a hell of a windy bloody road
as I looked over the edge and saw the vast, dark ravine
of what could happen
but instead I chose to climb uphill
and only now I'm reaching the splendour
of the sunlit meadows
of my soul.

Anger

Shouting and throwing things
    spilled tears and spilled dreams
is this really how
    we ought to deal with life's seams?

My love, look at me,
    look me in the eyes
my dear, imagine a world
    with no surprises!

As fuming red turns to foggy hues,
    and words come out in two-by-twos
take a step back
   and see life's funny cues.

No need to spill and make a mess
    if only to one another you'd confess
don't bend over and cry
    and spoil your pretty dress!

If only we'd see what's life's everyday
    instead of fighting day to day
it's not that hard
    if you imagine the beautiful future coming our way.

Tired

Eyes drooping
Head pounding
             thud
                       thud
A relentless anxiety
    to keep digging mud

Shovel in, shovel out
    what's the point 
        of this night out?

Smoke-filled rooms
    and dainty hallways
the corridors of life
    sweep us away

We mustn't forget
    to breathe and pause
because it is in our power
    to change course.

Youthhood

It’ll be fun and games, they said,
Go with the flow, they said.

But I’m wondering
Where is the flow?
Who do I call?
How do I find it?
How do I draw it on a graph to talk about and explain and oh oh what’s going on?

Questions echo into the abyss.

Consolation kisses

are those when raindrops fall
making them warm again

or when the ladder's too tall
and it's hard to count to ten

consolation kisses
smooth the bumps 
and the rough roads
turning the hmphs 
into sighs
as the soul unloads.